In Luke 16:10 it is written, "He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much: and he that is unjust in the least is unjust also in much."
In Matthew 52:21 it is written, "His master replied,'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!"
If I am to base my current daily comings and goings on these verses then it must be said and written of me that I have failed. I have for at least the past seven months, probably for the past ten months, if I'm being honest, been so focused on the big picture(s) that I have lost sight of the small ones.
"Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies." - Mother Teresa
Reading this quote alone explains so much to me. It brings complete revelation. As I have written in past blog entries I have struggled with the darkness we are each capable of. And in this time of searching for what God has next for me (big things, big picture) I have skipped past the things He has for me now (small things, small picture). I may write this same revelation over and over, but perhaps I am not the only one that needs a repeated revelation ? I write when I feel moved to do so or when something is weighing so heavily on my heart that I just know it isn't for my consumption alone. So, trust that if I repeat myself it's because I feel I am suppose to. It's perhaps my "small thing" for that day. I haven't written in about a week because I have been wallowing in my own self pity. I've been sick for seven days straight, tired (from what I just don't know), contemplative and plain beat down by the enemy. I have asked a few of my most trusted for prayers and vented to them as well. It always seems that when I am most frustrated or hurting the answer is directly in front of my face and I refuse, REFUSE, to look at it or consider it. I am my own worst enemy. I am the "Enemies" biggest weapon against me. Satan need look no further than my own heart to find a weapon that might defeat me. Astonishing isn't it? That we would build walls, form weapons, think and debate topics that are to be our defence when at times all that is useless. Satan need look no further than our own reflection.
Today as I was working on house chores, corresponding with some friends, working out, and just trying to get back to what I feel is "normal" these days, I found myself surfing a old acquaintance's website/blog. She is a worship leader and has a few songs that at this time in my life speak so specific to me. I knew today I needed to find them and down load them ASAP. And it's always so encouraging to me to see how much God has been working in someones life since last I knew them. Our lives move so quickly and it's difficult to keep up with everyone. I'm grateful for those who blog and make it easier for others to read, see, hear what God's done and is doing. I love it! I'm unsure of many things that warm my heart more. In her blog she recounted some of the wondrous things the Lord had been doing in her life and world to get her attention and remind her of His plans for her. His commitment, "which says we can be confident of this: 'He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ." Philippians 1:6. And in her words pulled from her blog, "He hasn't changed His mind concerning you" – Meredith Andrews Sooter.
I needed to hear those words today as I realize my unfaithfulness in the small things He has asked of me. He has NOT changed His mind concerning me!!!! Even my unfaithfulness can not change His heart, mind, and desire for me. I have an amazing family and great friends that I don't give enough credit to that support, love and encourage me when I am so unworthy. Today as I spoke to my Papaw I became overwhelmed at the idea that one person could love another so much, even when they don't deserve it. It is only a smidgin of what God's love is like for us. Even with our greatest love for our significant other, children, family, friends, etc. it is but a thimbles worth of what our God pours out on each of us.
I hate making comittments. I'm unsure which family member to blame for my lack of abilty to see long term, so for now I'll act like I'm the first one to suffer this issue. :-) But I want to do my best to comitt from today on that I will be faithful with the little things. I will do my best to see what those little things might be in each day, hour, or moment. No one jumps across a stream with one stealth leap. They hop across on the little rocks in between.
For Meredith's Music and Blog click on www.meredithandrews.com
The songs I downloaded are......
"Can Anybody Hear Me ?"
from the As Long As It takes Album
"You Are Not Alone"
from The Invitation Album
from The Invitation Album
I encourage you to check them out along with the rest of her music.