Saturday, March 17, 2012

Can't Change the Past. Can't Predict the Future. So, What Do I Do With Today ?

What do you do in the mean time ? Yesterday I was sick. This morning I woke up sad about a few things that still lingered from several days ago. While I absolutely am an advocate of embracing what you feel when you feel it, I am not an advocate of holding onto things that could poison you from the inside out. In a effort to release the poison and perhaps avoid another bad day I prayed admitting to the Lord how upset I was. I asked Him if possible to help me turn my mood around and to love today for whatever it is or will be. After my confession I went on to finish drinking my nalgene of water (morning ritual) and making some hot tea. It's a dreary day with a odd mix of warm and cool breezes. So it's a perfect morning for hot tea. My friend had sent me a picture of our other friends daughter who is four and forever entertaining us. She had picked out her own outfit which included a bathing suit cover up, Christmas socks, and some mittens. My response was that with this kind of weather I support her desire to be prepared for all possibilities. Clearly she is more on top of the weather than the local weather man.

I finished my morning "to-do's" of making the bed, walking the dog, brushing my teeth etc. and called to check in with my g'parents (another morning ritual). I sat listening to the rain on the roof and looking out at the dreary sky; I was for sure my attitude wasn't going to get any better with this as my back drop and all the worries in my mind weighing so heavy. I did some reading, more praying and then went to check the mail. My FAVE was awaiting me. Those of you who know me well know that nothing makes my day like a Fashion Magazine waiting for me in my mail box. Shallow ? Perhaps. I don't even care. I love me some fashion and beauty. Back in the day when all my mail went to my office I would justify putting off e-mails to skim my newest magazine by calling it "research". I was working with teenage girls and vote it was totally applicable research.

I came back in from the dreary outside and sat down with my hot peppermint tea in one hand, my fashion magazine & Jack Davis in my lap with the sound of the rain drizzling on the roof. I quickly realized the Lord has answered my prayer. He let me know almost immediately that the things of the past that make me sad today can't be changed. Even if I hold onto them longer than I should. That the fears, questions and worries of the future, I can not predict no matter how many worry lines I let them give me. And that simple joy's are awaiting me, if i would put off the weight of the things out of my control. So, what am I to do with today ?

 Rest - "In returning and rest you shall be saved;
In quietness and confidence shall be your strength." Isaiah 30:15
Enjoy - "And also that every man should eat and drink,
 and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God." Ecclesiastes 3:13
Trust - "And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee:
for thou, Lord, hast not forsaken them that seek thee." Psalms 9:10
Joy - "Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation." Habakkuk 3:18

What will I do with tomorrow ? - "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthes 6:34



1 comment:

  1. Another beautiful entry into the journal! I needed to hear this myself! Hugs!