Silence is the Answer

In the midst of spouting out prayers like a wish list to Santa I often find myself shocked when the Lord answers me. It's something that makes me realize how much He truly cares for His children's wants and needs. It also brings to my attention how light heartily I at times come to Him in prayer. While He does care for our every little need, am I fully aware of what I am saying when I come to Him in prayer ?

For the last year I have been praying, researching, applying, & interviewing for a new job. At the beginning of this journey I thought it would be a few months and bang, A new mission in life would be found. Not so, it's been such a incredible and growing journey for me. I still have not come across what the Lord has for me exactly. I'm starting to realize that maybe I'm not thinking on the right things, jobs, careers or ministries. I heard it said the other day that "you're dreams aren't coming true because you aren't dreaming big enough". It slapped me in the face this truth! Maybe my prayers aren't being answered because I'm not praying big enough ? I'm asking God for "just a job", "something to do", "money", etc. Instead of asking Him for whatever He might have for me next. WHATEVER, HE might have for me next not exactly what I ask for next.  He has continued to provide for me in varied ways. I'm so grateful that He does. He has allowed me times of ministry even with out a title of any kind. Whether it be with family, friends or former colleagues.

With each job opportunity that just isn't "IT", it is easy to become discouraged and beat down. But I've started to take these puzzle pieces that don't fit into my life puzzle as good things! Just as much as a "YES, THIS IS IT" would lead you in the right direction, so does the "NO, NOT THIS!". Sometimes the silence is the answer. In His not answering me directly or how I thought He might, He is actually answering me. Just because He is "silent" doesn't mean He isn't communicating. I equate it to having a secret you really wanna tell your best friend, but can't. They know you know something and that you can't tell, but they keep making guesses anyway and you are just about to burst with hints or even the secret cause you want so badly to tell them. I think in this time of searching that might be a little of what God has going on with me. He has this awesome secret and wants so much to let me in on it, but knows that to tell me now would ruin it.

So, I've got to keep guessing. It is my "job" for the moment to keep following after any and all leads into work, ministry and other wise until He lets me in on exactly what He has. It's my RESPONSIBILITY to continue in prayer searching after His will for me. Whatever that might be ?! It's also my responsibility as a Christian to be honest with what he has and is doing in my life each step of the way. I'm so excited !!! Here are a few verses helping me through this time in my life. I hope they are a encouragement to you as well.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,

“plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Matthew 11: 28-29 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened,

and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle

 and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

Philippians 4:19 And this same God who takes care of me will
supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.


Proverbs 1:33
But all who listen to me will live in peace,
untroubled by fear of harm.


John 14:27 I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart.
And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give.
So don’t be troubled or afraid.


Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.


Isaiah 26:3 You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is
stayed on you, because he trusts in you.